Today is June's contribution to Alex Cavanaugh's Insecure Writers Support Group.
What makes me an Insecure Writer this month?
The usual suspects. Nothing worth mentioning.
So this month I'll settle for answering the question of the month.
Did you ever say "I quit?" If so, what happened to make you come back to writing?
The simple answer is that I’ve never said “I quit.” It’s not as if I haven’t had reason to say it. I’m an excruciatingly slow writer. Writing doesn’t come as naturally to me as it does for most of you. Every word can be a struggle. I estimate that I’m only half way through my story, and during the years I’ve spent writing it, some of you have managed to put out trilogies. (Damn that Alex) Heck, even one of my former online crit members has managed to publish a book.
So yes, I’ve thought about quitting. But for some reason, no matter how badly I feel about my writing, no matter how down I am, no matter how many doubts I have, those feelings never last more than a day. All I have to do is go to bed and when I wake up the next morning, the doubts are gone. On some levels, my ability to ignore reality is almost frightening. But it keeps me going.
I have no idea if anyone will care for my simplistic writing style, or my story, or my characters. But to be honest, it doesn't really matter. I’m going to finish this story no matter what, and when I do, I’ll move on to the next one. I like the story, and that’s all that matters. Hopefully a few people will like it enough to buy it.
I’ll never quit being a writer. It's just not an option for me.
P.S. Thank goodness I have a day job!